I repeated this phrase in my head at least once an hour as I went through the motions of our final day in Rome. I decided to take advantage of the free time and bought souvenirs for my family with Rebecca and Kathryn. In the process we revisited some of our favorite places. It seemed as if every street, every store and every building had a memory. That's when I realized that I had dedicated the last month of my life to learning everything I could about this nation, it's history, it's culture and the people that I shared the experience with.
We walked down Rienzo towards the Vatican. I thought of the Billa, the Christ Cops at Sunday Mass and morning coffee with Dr. Bednarz. We hopped on the metro to the Colosseum and I thought of Lady Gaga, our tour of Michelle's kingdom aka the Colosseum, our walk to the Colosseum at sunset and, of course, the gladiators that dubbed me Beyonce for the first time. Who could forget those things?
Our last stop was Repubblica, where we found the Hard Rock Cafe Roma so Rebecca could get t-shirts for her dad (I thought it was so cute that her and her father collect the shirts together). We were just around the corner from the bone church. Dr. Sebastian and I learned that day that apparently the word "EW!" screamed by a 4-year old is universal in all languages.
When I returned to the collegio Kylee and I had a packing party and picked out our outfits for our last excursion with the group. I knew we had a group dinner planned, but I had no idea what was in store that evening.
Domenica, Dr. Bednarz and Dr. Sebastian surprised us with a traditional full course Italian dinner at a restaurant a few blocks away from campus. We had drinks, proscuitto and mozarella, melon, bruschetta and a seafood salad to open. Not to mention the wine and beers cascaded across our tables. While we enjoyed our opening courses we had a little fun sneaking our thank you cards underneath the dinner table to each other. I tried my hardest not to laugh as I signed Dr. Sebastian's card while I was talking to him. He had no idea. By the time the seafood salad came out I was ready to throw up my white flag. But just as I said this to myself I remembered that we still had our main dish to go.
Our waiter brought out pizzas, pastas and salads the group ordered. Michelle Rau and I agreed that we would split each other's dishes because we were both stuck on the same two options on the menu. She had some of my gnocchi and I had her lasagna. Between the two of us we still couldn't finish our plates. We admitted defeat and handed the rest to Jacob.
Full and exhausted, we decided to let our food settle and enjoy each other's company. We stayed at the table for an hour after our meal was served to us and reflected on all of the great things we saw and did during our month in Italy. I couldn't believe we created so many memories in such a short amount of time. So many inside jokes came flooding back to me. It was a little overwhelming, but I enjoyed every minute of it.
We walked, slowly, to Saint Peter's Square for our final meeting. Dr. Bednarz and Dr. Sebastian thanked us for coming on the trip and told us they had an amazing experience because we each brought something special to the table. They were right. There are so many personalities within our group; so many idiosyncrasies, thoughts, theories and opinions. I loved the fact that everyone had something insightful to say every day that I was there. Believe it or not, I learned just as much listening to my peers as I did during our class sessions.
As they wrapped up their final thoughts we surprised them with our thank you cards and Domenica with a gorgeous bouquet of flowers that Antonia picked out for her on behalf of us. I was happy that we were able to show our gratitude and express how thankful we were for everything that happened during our month together. Just as we finished hugging I looked up at the sky and saw seagulls flying rapidly towards the Vatican. I let out a quick, "What the hell?" before being surprised with fireworks!
It was a great surprise, but at the same time I wasn't surprised at all. From day one I've thought there was something about our group that attracted good luck in a borderline magnetic way. During the show everyone in Saint Peter's Square stopped in their tracks to watch the sky. I glanced around at our group laying against the warm rocks admiring the show and I saw unity. I can't imagine a better way to end our last night together.

When we headed back to campus we ran into a street fair. The fireworks were set off from Castel Sant'Angelo to celebrate the feast of Saints Peter and Paul. I'm sure the celebrations on the street were a continuation. We saw a band performing on the riverfront and sat on the wall to watch for a few minutes. I have to say I was impressed. Even the security guards couldn't stop themselves from dancing.
For at least a mile you could see people running, singing, dancing and laughing in every direction. The carousel was in full swing and tap dancers rapped against the cement to put on a show for anyone who wasn't playing games or indulging in the endless sugary treats available at the giant candy bar. Castel Sant'Angelo was definitely the place to be that night.
We walked back to via Marcantonio for a final late night gelato run, said our farewells and went to our rooms to pack. Honestly, I barely slept that night. This will sound certifiably nuts, but if I fell asleep I knew I would wake up to a clock that finally ran out. So instead, I watched the sun rise and listened to the seagulls laugh one more time.
Eyelids heavy and bags in tow, Kathryn and I set out for the shuttle stop. I couldn't believe we were leaving. But, I was at peace with it. I knew that this was one adventure of out many that life would undoubtedly offer me. So when the plane took off three hours later, I said, "Until next time, Italia."
Until then, I'll be on the edge...

